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Kamil S\u00fcmb\u00fcl\u2019e G\u00f6nderdi\u011fim bir yaz\u0131<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Day\u0131mo\u011flu selam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201c\u015earap ve Edebiyat\u201d(*)<\/sup> ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 yaz\u0131m\u0131 be\u011fenmene sevindim. Duygulanmana gelince, yaz\u0131n beni de duyguland\u0131rd\u0131. Ya\u015flanmadan m\u0131, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n getirmi\u015f oldu\u011fu \u00f6zlemden mi, yoksa hassas olu\u015fumuzdan m\u0131 bilemiyorum, zaman zaman beni de baz\u0131 \u015feyler \u00e7ok duyguland\u0131r\u0131yor. \u00d6rne\u011fin; d\u00fcn G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\u2019de bizim evin yak\u0131n\u0131nda Antep y\u00f6resinden getirilmi\u015f sert k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm (Avderi mi deniliyordu?) sat\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez Faho Dedem akl\u0131ma geldi: \u00c7ermik\u2019te ba\u011fda \u00fcz\u00fcm toplay\u0131\u015f\u0131, toplanan \u00fcz\u00fcmlerin kurutulu\u015fu, e\u015fekle Ergani\u2019ye kuru \u00fcz\u00fcmleri getirip sat\u0131\u015f\u0131\u2026 Bunlar\u0131n hepsi film \u015feridi gibi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti. Hi\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcm alaca\u011f\u0131m yokken, 2 kilo \u00fcz\u00fcm ald\u0131m. Eve geldi\u011fimde Sevgi\u2019ye; \u201cBu \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnce Faho Dedem akl\u0131ma geldi, ve \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc ald\u0131m\u201d dedim. O da, \u201cK\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnce benimde akl\u0131ma Ergani\u2019deki ba\u011flar geldi,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Neyse\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yaz\u0131nda, i\u00e7inden benimle \u015farap i\u00e7mek geldi\u011fini yaz\u0131yorsun. Sen, en iyisi bu ak\u015fam bir Avustralya \u015farab\u0131 a\u00e7; hem benim yerime, hem Diyarbak\u0131r Cezaevi\u2019nde birlikte yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z nitelikli dostlar\u0131n yerine ve de kendin i\u00e7in i\u00e7. Ama \u0130stanbul\u2019a geldi\u011finde iyisinden bir tane Avustralya \u015farab\u0131 isterim: Getir, birlikte i\u00e7elim; eskileri y\u00e2d edelim; g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn pas\u0131n\u0131 silelim, g\u00fczel g\u00fcnler ve hakiki dostluklar\u0131n \u015ferefine kafalar\u0131 bulal\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ramazan ay\u0131nda \u015farapla ilgili bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 yazmam tesad\u00fcf\u00ee de\u011fil, biraz bilin\u00e7li yazd\u0131m. Ya\u015fam buralarda ayn\u0131la\u015ft\u0131. Ya\u015fam\u0131n farkl\u0131 renklerden, farkl\u0131 zevklerden olu\u015ftu\u011funu, m\u00fc\u015fterek oldu\u011funu; fark\u0131 fark ettirmek i\u00e7in yazd\u0131m diyebilirim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de, sanki din yeniden ke\u015fif edildi; b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00e7o\u011funluk dinsel dalgan\u0131n etkisi alt\u0131nda bir yerlere savruluyor. Ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn, Ramazan\u2019\u0131n ilk Cuma g\u00fcn\u00fc Cuma namaz\u0131 k\u0131l\u0131n\u0131rken \u0130stanbul\u2019un cadde ve sokaklar\u0131 bombo\u015ftu. Tek t\u00fck yaya ve arac\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda in cin top oynuyordu. 20 y\u0131ld\u0131r \u0130stanbul\u2019day\u0131m, b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Kan\u0131mca \u0130sl\u00e2m kendini t\u00fcketene kadar bu y\u00fckseli\u015f devam edecek!<\/p>\n\n\n\n A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da sevdi\u011fin, Diyarbak\u0131r cehenneminde seni sar\u0131p sarmalayan, moral kayna\u011f\u0131 olan Kul Nesimi\u2019nin d\u00f6rtl\u00fcklerini (Bende, bilgisayarda kay\u0131tl\u0131 olan\u0131) g\u00f6nderiyorum. Biliyorum; bu dizeleri okuyunca yine eskilere gideceksin. Olsun! \u0130nsan ge\u00e7mi\u015fiyle vard\u0131r. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fimiz ho\u015f olmasa da bizim ge\u00e7mi\u015fimiz ve de onurumuz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ben yitirdim ben arar\u0131m G\u00e2h giderim medreseye Sofular haram demi\u015fler Ben mel\u00e2met h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131 Sofular secde ederler G\u00e2h \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131m g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne Kelp rakip b\u00f6yle diyormu\u015f Nesim\u00ee\u2019ye sordular ki 17 Eyl\u00fcl 2007 (*) \u0130lgili Yaz\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Y\u00e2r benimdir kime ne
G\u00e2h giderim \u00f6z ba\u011f\u0131ma
G\u00fcl dererim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ders okurum Hak i\u00e7in
G\u00e2h giderim meyhaneye
Dem \u00e7ekerim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu a\u015fk\u0131n \u015farab\u0131na
Ben doldurur ben i\u00e7erim
G\u00fcnah benim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kendim giydim e\u011fnime
Ar \u00fc namus \u015fi\u015fesini
Ta\u015fa \u00e7ald\u0131m kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mescidin mihrab\u0131na
Y\u00e2r e\u015fi\u011fi secdeg\u00e2h\u0131m
Y\u00fcz s\u00fcrerim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00fckmederim kaf\u2019tan kaf\u2019a
G\u00e2h inerim yery\u00fcz\u00fcne
Y\u00e2r severim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
G\u00fczel sevmek pek g\u00fcnah
Ben severim sevdi\u011fimi
G\u00fcnah benim kime ne<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n
Y\u00e2rin ile ho\u015f musun
Ho\u015f olay\u0131m olmayay\u0131m
O y\u00e2r benim kime n<\/em>e<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00fcsl\u00fcm \u00dcz\u00fclmez<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n