{"id":4887,"date":"1994-12-01T18:18:00","date_gmt":"1994-12-01T18:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/?p=4887"},"modified":"2025-08-26T03:48:11","modified_gmt":"2025-08-26T03:48:11","slug":"doludizgin-yasamak-siir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/?p=4887","title":{"rendered":"Doludizgin Ya\u015famak (\u015eiir)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

M\u00fcsl\u00fcm \u00dcz\u00fclmez, Doludizgin Ya\u015famak (\u015eiir), \u0130stanbul, Aral\u0131k 1994, 80 sayfa.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00d6NS\u00d6Z<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu kitab\u0131mda s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri kar\u0131nca karar\u0131nca oya gibi i\u015fleyerek, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n derin izleri i\u00e7erisinde, g\u00f6nl\u00fcmden kopan duygular\u0131 \u015fiirle\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yazd\u0131klar\u0131m, an\u0131lar\u0131n silinmez izleri ile zaman zaman dalga gibi kabaran duygular\u0131n ak ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcne yans\u0131mas\u0131d\u0131r. Yazmak g\u00fczel bir duygu. Bu \u015fiir olunca daha da g\u00fczelle\u015fmekte. Ben kendimce yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u015eiirlerim yay\u0131nland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kabaran duygular dalgas\u0131ndan k\u0131y\u0131da neler kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bende merak etmekteyim. K\u0131y\u0131da kalacak olanlar, \u015fiirlerin siz okuyucular\u0131mda b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131 etkidir. Kabaran duygu dalgalar\u0131 ise benim f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eiir insan\u0131n i\u00e7 zenginli\u011finin, g\u00f6n\u00fcl zenginli\u011finin \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc olmal\u0131. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn zengin oldu\u011funa inan\u0131yorum. \u015eiirlerimde, ac\u0131y\u0131 sevince katmerle\u015ftirebildimse, ne mutlu bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sayg\u0131lar\u0131mla!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fcsl\u00fcm \u00dcz\u00fclmez
25 Ekim 1994<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u015e\u0130\u0130RLER<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yolum Uzun<\/strong>
yolum uzun, gidiyorum g\u00f6z\u00fcm kara
kaderim elimde de\u011fil, ba\u015f\u0131m bora
sevdan benim i\u00e7in \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ate\u015fi
yak\u0131yor bedenimi o, sara sara<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1981, Diyarbak\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cana Can Olmaya \u00c7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m<\/strong>
ya\u015fam\u0131n g\u00fczellik bah\u00e7esinde
her zaman:
topra\u011f\u0131n rahmine tohum
tohuma ya\u015fam
ya\u015fama bereket
berekete katmer
olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

cana can
olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1981, Diyarbak\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kekli\u011fim<\/strong>
bu da\u011flar\u0131n ard\u0131 g\u00f6lgedir
yarlar tehlikeli b\u00f6lgedir
u\u00e7man rengin sesin \u00f6zgedir
tenhalarda u\u00e7ma kekli\u011fim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

d\u00f6nem pu\u015ftlar\u0131n, fak kurarlar
pusudan seni de vururlar
all\u0131 kanad\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rarlar
tenhalarda u\u00e7ma kekli\u011fim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1982, Diyarbak\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevdan<\/strong>
sevdan
a\u015f\u0131m ekme\u011fim g\u00fcne\u015fim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sevdan
diyar-i bekir surlar\u0131 gibi mahsun
ve ha\u015fin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sevdal\u0131m
sen d\u0131\u015farda
ben i\u00e7erde
seni benden
beni senden
ay\u0131rmak
kavgam\u0131 k\u0131rmak
sevdandan cayd\u0131rmak
i\u00e7in
c\u00fcmle silahlar\u0131yla
\u00fcst\u00fcme \u00fcst\u00fcme
geliyorlar
prangalara vurup vurup
demirden
betondan
h\u00fccrelere sal\u0131yorlar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ama sevdan:
yediveren g\u00fcll\u00fccesine
ege’de
\u00e7ukurova’da
harran’da ye\u015fermekte,
karacada\u011f’\u0131n zozan\u0131nda
k\u0131z\u0131l karanfilcesine a\u00e7makta,
beynimin her h\u00fccresinde
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemin \u015fahdamar\u0131nda
ya\u015famakta
g\u00fczel bir kad\u0131n\u0131n ince belini sararcas\u0131na
\u00f6z benli\u011fimi sarmakta.
sevdan
her \u015feye ra\u011fmen
k\u0131ran k\u0131rana sava\u015fmakta\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1982, Diyarbak\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nazl\u0131m<\/strong>
vuruldum seslenemem duy! sesim k\u0131s\u0131k
g\u00fcvercinim yaral\u0131, kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k
sevda y\u00fckl\u00fc mektubumu g\u00f6nderemem
sen gel bari g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcme nazl\u0131m! s\u0131k s\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6zlem<\/strong>
bir bilsen, seni nas\u0131l \u00f6zledim
d\u00f6rt g\u00f6zle yolunu g\u00f6zledim
ne selam g\u00f6nderdin, ne sen geldin
g\u00fcl y\u00fcz\u00fcn benden neden gizledin?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hapishaneler hep d\u00f6rt duvard\u0131r
hapiste olanda \u00e7ok dert vard\u0131r
ba\u011fr\u0131 yan\u0131k, g\u00f6zleri yoldad\u0131r
soran\u0131 var ise, o da yard\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yarim! beni sana ba\u011flayan o
g\u00f6n\u00fcllere akan bir \u00e7a\u011flayan o
g\u00f6n\u00fcl verdim bende o sevdaya
sevdan emek, y\u00fcce bir de\u011fer o<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Var Olman\u0131n Anlam\u0131<\/strong>
kadir k\u0131ymet bilen
g\u00f6z bebeklerinin i\u00e7i g\u00fclen
g\u00fcl tanem!
sen olmay\u0131nca yan\u0131mda
g\u00f6nl\u00fcm buruk
kalbim bo\u015f
ba\u015f\u0131m naho\u015f.
s\u00f6yle
b\u00f6yle sensiz olman\u0131n
ne anlam\u0131 var?
olmaz olsun!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u00e7imdeki Sevgi<\/strong>
hayat sonsuz bir dalga
benim varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir nokta
dalga dalga bu sonsuzlukta
g\u00fczel
\u00e7irkin
iyi
k\u00f6t\u00fc
var olan her \u015fey
bir
olu\u015fum
bozulu\u015fum
durmaks\u0131z\u0131n hareket
ve de\u011fi\u015fim halinde
bir de\u011fi\u015fmeyen
benim sana olan sevgim
\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc
sonsuzluk benim i\u00e7imde
sevgin benim i\u00e7imde<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevdal\u0131 Ba\u015f\u0131m Duman<\/strong>
ko\u00e7ero olarak
hazreti isa’dan
bindokuzy\u00fczsekseniki y\u0131l sonra
kollar\u0131m gerili \u00e7arm\u0131htay\u0131m
\u00e7\u0131plak,
a\u011fz\u0131mda di\u015f
k\u0131r\u0131k
kulaklar\u0131mda zar
y\u0131rt\u0131k
dudaklar\u0131mdan
ak\u0131yor kan.
ellerim arkadan
edison’a inat bak\u0131r telle ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m
elektrik ak\u0131m\u0131 veriliyor kas\u0131klar\u0131mdan
kanl\u0131 \u00fcre
sanc\u0131
ak\u0131yor idrar\u0131mdan.
g\u00f6zlerim \u015fim\u015fek
bo\u015fan\u0131yor v\u00fccudumdan
ter \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k
sesim k\u0131s\u0131k
biliyorum
hazreti isa sa\u011f olsayd\u0131
utan\u0131rd\u0131 isa’l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan.
aahhh! anaaam!.. aah!
ah ki ne ah!..
aman ki ne aman!..
sevdal\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m duman
onlar ki konu\u015fturmaya
ben konu\u015fmamaya
etmi\u015fiz iman.
\u00e7arm\u0131hta da olsa
barut f\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 y\u00fcre\u011fimin derinliklerinden
bir ses hayk\u0131r\u0131yor durmadan:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“ko\u00e7ero!..
ruhunu teslim etme!
sak\u0131n ele verme!
onurunu koru, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclme!
umudunu t\u00fcketme!
dayan!!!”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hasret \u015eark\u0131s\u0131<\/strong>
bulutlu da\u011flar
durmadan a\u011flar
sel olur \u00e7a\u011flar
g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc da\u011flar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131m p\u0131nar
ci\u011ferim nar nar
hasret \u015fark\u0131s\u0131
g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc da\u011flar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sen sevdin beni
ben sevdim seni
sevmek sevilmek
g\u00f6nl\u00fcme \u00e7a\u011flar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevdan\u0131n T\u00fckenmeyen Umudu<\/strong>
a\u015fk hududunda sineme may\u0131n diken
g\u00f6n\u00fcl ba\u011f\u0131yla \u00e7evreme \u00f6rg\u00fc \u00e7eken
g\u00fczelli\u011fin a\u015fk ba\u011f\u0131na sevgi eken
sevdan\u0131n o t\u00fckenmeyen umududur<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Karacada\u011f Eteklerinde Kopan F\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n Destan\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

1.<\/strong>
karacada\u011f eteklerinde
i\u015fkence fabrikas\u0131 durmadan \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor:
24 saat.
insanlar a\u00e7
insanlar peri\u015fan
kol geziyor verem
hasta her yan,
insanlar
ya \u00f6l\u00fcyor ya da kal\u0131yor sakat.
zorluyorlar
tutsak halk\u0131m\u0131n evlatlar\u0131n\u0131
tutsak etmeye
ne derlerse
“em-reeet komutaaan\u0131\u0131\u0131m!” demeye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2.<\/strong>
vuru\u015farak
s\u00fcren bu sava\u015fta
kimileri teslim oluyor
a\u00e7l\u0131ktan
can korkusundan
birde coptan
kimileri
umutsuz gelecekten
kimileri de:
hi\u00e7bir yerde
hi\u00e7bir zaman
ey-i vallah etmedi
dilemedi aman
ancak
ey-i vallah etmemek yetmiyor
hep birlikte kader birli\u011fi ederek
horon tutup t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6ylemek gerek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

3.<\/strong>
karacada\u011f’\u0131n eteklerinde
1983’\u00fcn 5 eyl\u00fcl’\u00fcnde
fukara
baht\u0131kara
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tatmam\u0131\u015f
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe hasret
halk\u0131m\u0131n yi\u011fit evlatlar\u0131
hep birlikte
k\u0131rd\u0131 “emir-komuta zincirini”
\u00fcst\u00fcn geldi copa.
ama onlar
ikiy\u00fczl\u00fcd\u00fcr her zaman
al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r
zul\u00fcm etmeye
kan d\u00f6kmeye
ant i\u00e7mi\u015ftir
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck i\u00e7in sava\u015fanlar\u0131
susturmaya.
ne yaz\u0131k ki \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bo\u015funa
lakin sevda rahmine
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck tohumu d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc
uyuyan dev uyand\u0131
patlad\u0131
karacada\u011f’\u0131n kara ta\u015f\u0131nda volkan
art\u0131k
yetmeyecektir g\u00fc\u00e7leri
ne susturmaya
ne durdurmaya
var\u0131lacakt\u0131r
var\u0131lmak istenen
noktaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nedir Bu Kadar Karanfil<\/strong>
her may\u0131s ay\u0131n\u0131n ikinci pazar\u0131
amerika’da “anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc” kabul edilmi\u015f.
eh!.. bizimkiler de amerika’dan geri kal\u0131r m\u0131?
hilton’larda
etap’larda
pera palas’larda
sempozyum konferans
kokteylleriyle
birbirinden \u015fuh
birbirinden g\u00fczel
dilberler:
hava atarlar
l\u00fcks otomobilleriyle
\u00e7al\u0131m satarlar
pierre cardin’li elbiseleriyle,
balolarda
g\u00f6bek atarlar, g\u00f6bek att\u0131r\u0131rlar
italyan yap\u0131m\u0131 masalarda.
g\u00f6z nuru nedir
bilmeseler de
al\u0131nteri
d\u00f6kmeseler de
ellerine \u00f6m\u00fcrlerinde
i\u015f de\u011fmese de
muhte\u015fem salonlarda utanmazca:
atarlar
tutarlar
s\u00f6ylev \u00e7ekerler
analar\u0131m\u0131z hakk\u0131nda
anam hakk\u0131nda.
oysa
binlerce zelo tarlada
binlerce hatice tezgahta
binlerce havva hapishane avlusunda,
ne bilirler hilton’u
ne bilirler cin-toni\u011fi
ne de bilirler pierre cardin’i?..
onlar:
ya\u015famak i\u00e7in ibadet edercesine
yaz k\u0131\u015f, gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakta
ya\u015fam\u0131n y\u0131llard\u0131r verdi\u011fi \u00e7ileyi
bir oya gibi sab\u0131rla \u00f6rmekte
ellerinden al\u0131nan evlatlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek i\u00e7in
g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f g\u00fcnlerini iple \u00e7ekmektedirler.
g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcnde
benim “kadan alam!” diyen anam
“anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc”nde mendili elinde
analarla birlikte
gelmi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcme.
analar\u0131m\u0131z s\u00f6k\u00fcn etmi\u015f
y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hapishanen \u00f6n\u00fcne.
getirmi\u015fler ellerinde
renk renk k\u0131r \u00e7i\u00e7eklerini
kucaklar\u0131na doldurmu\u015flar
renk renk beyaz sar\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcllerini
k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 beyaz pembe karanfillerini.
ama askerler k\u0131z\u0131yorlar
“nedir bu kadar karanfil?!..” diye
\u00e7i\u00e7ek g\u00fcl
ve karanfil demetlerini par\u00e7alay\u0131p
postallar\u0131yla eziyorlar
verilen emirle
“anneler g\u00fcn\u00fc”nde
karanfilleri de\u011fil
annelerin y\u00fcre\u011fini \u00e7i\u011fniyorlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ne G\u00fczel<\/strong>
merhaba \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck!
da\u011flar ta\u015flar u\u00e7an ku\u015flar merhaba!
art\u0131k bende \u00f6zg\u00fcr\u00fcm,
ne mutlu bana hasret duyduklar\u0131m
sevdiklerim
sizlere kavu\u015ftum.
insan\u0131n
sevdiklerine kavu\u015fmas\u0131
onlar\u0131 kucaklamas\u0131
yeni do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6zg\u00fcrce selamlamas\u0131
ne g\u00fczel!..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haziran 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Biz Bize<\/strong>
kol kola
el ele
s\u00f6yle\u015felim
dil dile<\/p>\n\n\n\n

diz dize
g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze
sevi\u015felim
biz bize<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sevi\u015felim
biz bize<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haziran 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Cana Can Katt\u0131n<\/strong>
sevgiyi tatt\u0131n
dertleri att\u0131n
g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme yatt\u0131n
cana can katt\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

tasam\u0131 alma
sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 yolma
bensiz hi\u00e7 olma
cana can katt\u0131n
cana can katt\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temmuz 984\/Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yenilgiyi Kabul Etmedik<\/strong>
yapt\u0131klar\u0131mdan
hi\u00e7bir zaman
olmad\u0131m pi\u015fman<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hak dedik
kol kola y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck dedik
h\u0131nca h\u0131n\u00e7 alanlar\u0131 doldurduk<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bazen birer birer
bazen de birlikte
cezaevlerine t\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131k
ezildik
horland\u0131k
a\u00e7 kald\u0131k
\u00f6ld\u00fck
dirildik
dirildik
\u00f6ld\u00fck
ama
yenilgiyi kabul etmedik.
yenilen yenilgiyi kabul etmedik\u00e7e
kazan\u0131lan zafer, zafer de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kavgada yenildik
kavgada bilendik
yenildik
yenilgiyi kabul etmedik<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temmuz 1984, Ergani\/Diyarbak\u0131r<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsanlar Hep A\u015f\u0131k Olmal\u0131<\/strong>
bil ki\u2026 g\u00fcnahs\u0131z sevdim seni
naz edipte delirtme beni
bilirim g\u00f6nl\u00fcn oldu\u011funu
yeter! naz etme, tut elimi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u00f6zle saz bar\u0131\u015f\u0131k olmal\u0131
diken g\u00fcl sarma\u015f\u0131k olmal\u0131
fani d\u00fcnya gelip ge\u00e7ici
insanlar hep a\u015f\u0131k olmal\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fustos 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n Tac\u0131<\/strong>
ba\u015fak tanesi y\u00fcz\u00fcn
ar\u0131 bal\u0131d\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn
her h\u00fccremin, beynimin
bir senfonisidir s\u00f6z\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00e7i\u00e7eklerden s\u00fcmb\u00fcls\u00fcn
sevgi ba\u011f\u0131mda g\u00fcls\u00fcn
d\u00fcnya \u015fahidim olsun
kalbimde tek g\u00fcls\u00fcn
sevgi a\u015fk\u0131n ilac\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sevgisiz kalmak ac\u0131
sevgisiz ya\u015fan\u0131r m\u0131?
ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n aziz tac\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fustos 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Selvi Boylu<\/strong>
al yanak \u00fcst\u00fcne konan buse olsam
kula\u011f\u0131ndaki k\u00fcpeye pense olsam
sal\u0131nd\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00fczelle\u015fen selvi boylu
g\u00fczelin ge\u00e7ti\u011fi yolda \u015fose olsam<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dudaklar \u015fekerpare, duru\u015fu soylu
s\u00fcrmeli g\u00f6zler g\u00fcvercin, g\u00fczel huylu
asil g\u00fczelli\u011fi tanr\u0131dan onayl\u0131
sana hi\u00e7 doyum olur mu? selvi boylu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eyl\u00fcl 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Anam<\/strong>
cana bir canan
her zaman anam
ci\u011ferden yanan
olur hep anam<\/p>\n\n\n\n

y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fclmedi
dinmek bilmedi
zordan y\u0131lmad\u0131
m\u00fcbarek anam<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eyl\u00fcl 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130\u015fsizlik<\/strong>
bu rezil i\u015fsizlik ne bela?
bir i\u015f bulamad\u0131m ben h\u00e2l\u00e2
ne olacak bunun sonu?
bende bilmiyorum! valla\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u015fsizlik ate\u015ften bir g\u00f6mlek
gelin! birlikte k\u00f6kten silek.
olsun! ne i\u015f olursa olsun!
\u00fcstesinden gelir bu bilek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i\u015fsizlik ate\u015ften bir g\u00f6mlek
gelin! birlikte k\u00f6kten silek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eyl\u00fcl 1984, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00fczel Karde\u015fim<\/strong>
ayn\u0131 babadan
ayn\u0131 ana rahmine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ayn\u0131 memeden s\u00fct
ayn\u0131 tastan su i\u00e7tik<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00fcn oldu
koyun koyuna yatt\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

g\u00fcn oldu
ayn\u0131 ac\u0131lar\u0131
ayn\u0131 sevin\u00e7leri
ayn\u0131 \u00f6zlemleri
payla\u015ft\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksulluk i\u00e7inde
binbir \u00e7ileyle yeti\u015ftik
deste deste dertleri
dert teknesinde yo\u011furarak pi\u015ftik<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ikimizden ziyade
-\u00fc\u00e7 bac\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 karda\u015f-
daha var alt\u0131 ba\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ayn\u0131 yast\u0131\u011fa koymu\u015ftuk ba\u015f
sonra koyduk
ayn\u0131 davaya ba\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

seninle karde\u015ftik
olduk arkada\u015f
olduk yolda\u015f<\/p>\n\n\n\n

y\u00fcr\u00fcrken ba\u015f konulan dava u\u011fruna
havalar bozuldu
\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 birden f\u0131rt\u0131na
ba\u015flad\u0131 tipi
avc\u0131 taz\u0131lar\u0131 kurt k\u00f6pekleri d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc izimize
namlular \u00e7evrildi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze
goco’nun \u00f6n\u00fcnde<\/p>\n\n\n\n

biz de \u00e7antada olmamak i\u00e7in keklik
ana diyar\u0131ndan baba oca\u011f\u0131ndan
ayr\u0131ld\u0131k
yollara d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck
olduk gurbet ku\u015flar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonra?..
sonra \u015fehr-i muazzam da bulu\u015ftuk
sabaha kadar
konu\u015ftuk ha konu\u015ftuk<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yeniden \u00e7ok s\u00fcrmedi
kas\u0131rgalar koptu
\u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcze karabulut \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc
ve ay\u0131rd\u0131 beni
senden
g\u00fcl\u00fcmden
g\u00fcllerimden
ve dostlar\u0131mdan
oldum kafeste bir ku\u015f
sen oldun g\u00f6\u00e7men ku\u015f
\u00f6nce sen kafeste
ben g\u00f6\u00e7men ku\u015ftum
anla\u015f\u0131lan bu i\u015fi s\u0131raya koyduk<\/p>\n\n\n\n

neyse
\u00e7ok uzun ve zorlu
iki y\u0131l ara yerden s\u0131v\u0131\u015ft\u0131
kafesteki ku\u015f
\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe kavu\u015ftu
tekrar \u015fehr-i muazzama u\u00e7tu
ve seninle bulu\u015ftu
hasret giderildi dertle\u015fildi.
yenildi i\u00e7ildi
ve ard\u0131ndan:
“ben g\u00f6\u00e7men ku\u015fum
zaman\u0131 geldi u\u00e7mam\u0131n. ne dersin?”
ne diyeyim? \u015feyh cuma’n\u0131n o\u011flu
bu i\u015fler b\u00f6yle
tatl\u0131 s\u00f6zlerini
g\u00fclen kara g\u00f6zlerini
unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m!
git! g\u00fcle g\u00fcle\u2026
\u0131\u015f\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131n parlayan
zeytinkaras\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini \u00f6perim
g\u00fczel karde\u015fim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

git! g\u00fcle g\u00fcle\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ocak 1985, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Cemal<\/strong>
2 ocak 1985 tarihli
yani y\u0131lba\u015f\u0131’ndan bir g\u00fcn sonraki
“milliyet gazetesi”nin i\u00e7 sayfalar\u0131nda
bir resim
resim alt\u0131nda
izmir kaynakl\u0131 bir haber:
“a\u00e7 kalan cemal
ekmek \u00e7ald\u0131, h\u0131rs\u0131z oldu.”
gazete devam ediyor:
“talihsiz cemal
1984’te \u00e7ald\u0131,
1985’te yakaland\u0131.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ve sorgusunda cemal:
“herkes e\u011fleniyordu
benim kalacak yerim yoktu.” Diyor<\/p>\n\n\n\n

gazete \u00f6n\u00fcmde
bak\u0131yorum cemal’in resmine
Cemal’in \u00fcst\u00fcnde:
parka y\u0131rt\u0131k
\u00e7izgili ti\u015f\u00f6rt kirli
pantolonu bolca<\/p>\n\n\n\n

cemal iki elini
koymu\u015f iki dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcne
\u00e7\u00f6melmi\u015f g\u00fcnah duvar\u0131n\u0131n dibine
b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f boynu \u00f6ne<\/p>\n\n\n\n

belli ki\u2026 utan\u0131yor
ekmek ve peynir \u00e7almaktan
belli ki\u2026 a\u00e7
umutsuz gelecekten<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kim bilir?\u2026 belki de
1985’in ilk san\u0131\u011f\u0131
1985’in ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc
karl\u0131 bir g\u00fcnde
-nezarethanede-
s\u0131cak bir yer buldu\u011fundan
-kelep\u00e7esi kendisinden b\u00fcy\u00fck-
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck cemal seviniyor<\/p>\n\n\n\n

gazete \u00f6n\u00fcmde
g\u00f6z\u00fcm resimde
vicdan muhasebesi
yap\u0131yorum kendi kendime
soruyorum? su\u00e7lu kim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

y\u0131lda bilmem ka\u00e7 milyar dolar
b\u00fct\u00e7eden silahlanmaya para ay\u0131ranlar m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksa\u2026 %46 tasarruf edip
yat\u0131r\u0131ma y\u00f6nelmeyen holdinglerin
b\u00fcy\u00fck patronlar\u0131 m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksa\u2026 toplanan vergileri
har vurup harman savuran
ruh ve bedenleri sat\u0131l\u0131k pe\u015fke\u015f\u00e7i
koku\u015fmu\u015f politikac\u0131lar m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksa\u2026 anas\u0131n\u0131 allay\u0131p pullay\u0131p
yeniden babas\u0131na satar gibi
hayali ihracat yapanlar m\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksa\u2026 1985 y\u0131l\u0131 “gen\u00e7lik y\u0131l\u0131”d\u0131r deyip
gen\u00e7li\u011fi demir kap\u0131lar arkas\u0131na t\u0131kan
sonra da
tonton bir baba \u015fefkatiyle gen\u00e7lik \u00fczerine
s\u00f6ylev \u00e7ekenler mi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yoksa\u2026 yoksa
-kelep\u00e7esi kendisinden b\u00fcy\u00fck-
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck cemal mi
soruyorum
su\u00e7lu kim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“milliyet”
“talihsiz cemal h\u0131rs\u0131z oldu” diye yaz\u0131yor<\/p>\n\n\n\n

oynanan oyun hep ayn\u0131 oyun
hem cemal’ler kaderle talihle b\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcl\u00fcr
hem de
al\u0131nlar\u0131na h\u0131rs\u0131z damgas\u0131
bileklerine zincir vurulur<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sonra
sonra sur dipleri, k\u00f6pr\u00fc altlar\u0131 meskenleri
hapishaneler mekanlar\u0131 olur<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yeter be k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck cemal
g\u00f6r
\u00f6\u011fren
bil art\u0131k
sen ne talihsiz
ne de h\u0131rs\u0131zs\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

unutma
bal\u0131k ba\u015ftan kokar
az\u0131c\u0131k ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131r yukar\u0131 bak
g\u00f6receksin
kimlerin h\u0131rs\u0131z oldu\u011funu
g\u00f6receksin
kimlerin kelep\u00e7eye lay\u0131k oldu\u011funu
kelep\u00e7esi kendisinden b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Cemal<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ocak 1985, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Korku \u00dczerine<\/strong>
seni
bug\u00fcne getiren yurduna
sana
umut ba\u011fl\u0131yan halk\u0131na
\u00f6deyebilmek i\u00e7in borcunu
nefesini iyi tutup
ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 yere sa\u011flam basacaks\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

gerekirse korkmadan
b\u00fct\u00fcn gemileri yakacaks\u0131n!
korkar\u0131m ben!
vatan\u0131mdan ayr\u0131 kalmaktan
k\u00f6ks\u00fcz kenger gibi olmaktan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

korkar\u0131m ben!
dudaklar\u0131ndan \u00f6pt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm sevgi’mden
sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00e7ocuklar\u0131mdan
ayr\u0131lmaktan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

korkar\u0131m ben
bekledi\u011fim g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmeden
ahret kervan\u0131na kat\u0131lmaktan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

korktu\u011fum da olmu\u015ftur
hem de \u00e7oook
ama korkmamak i\u00e7in
korkmak
korkuyu yenmek
korkuyu unutmak gerek<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu korku
can korkusu
olsa da<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ocak 1985, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dostlars\u0131z Olmuyor \u0130\u00e7menin Tad\u0131<\/strong>
dostlarla g\u00fczeldir
rak\u0131 sofras\u0131nda
g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze olmak
g\u00f6zlerimizin i\u00e7ine bakarak
i\u00e7mek
i\u00e7erken tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 sohbet
hele bir de
olursa masada
beyaz peynir
sar\u0131 kavun
ve et
zaman doldur!
ister sulu ister sek
kald\u0131r l\u0131k\u0131r l\u0131k\u0131r
kafaya \u00e7ek
niye yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim
\u00f6zledim yetmi\u015flik
ispirtosuz anasonu bol rak\u0131lar\u0131
ve daha \u00e7ok ta dostlar\u0131
kimlerle i\u00e7eceksin
dostlar ba\u011f\u0131na dolu vurdu
kimini yel ald\u0131
kimini sel g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc
her biri bir tarafa savruldu
olmuyor
dostlar s\u0131z i\u00e7menin tad\u0131
ama g\u00fcn gelecek
yine sofralar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kuraca\u011f\u0131z
kararmas\u0131n y\u00fcrekler
s\u00f6nmesin umutlar
kavgas\u0131n\u0131 verdi\u011fimiz
\u00f6zg\u00fcr g\u00fcnler \u015ferefine
bardaklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131
doldurup doldurup kald\u0131raca\u011f\u0131z
hem de \u015fi\u015feleri k\u0131raca\u011f\u0131z
i\u015fte o zaman
t\u00fcrk\u00fclerimiz de bile:
bir ta\u015f at\u0131lmayacak havaya
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fclmeyecek mahpushaneye
onbe\u015f k\u0131z kand\u0131r\u0131lmayacak
bir \u015fi\u015fe lavantaya
kurtlar\u0131n da boynu k\u0131r\u0131laca\u011f\u0131ndan
bir daha hi\u00e7 kimse
cesaret edemeyecek
“gur \u00fb berx” oynamaya<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nisan 1985, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckk\u00f6y\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doludizgin Ya\u015famak<\/strong>
doludizgin ya\u015famak
sevgilinin beline sar\u0131l\u0131p
yumu\u015fak
s\u0131cak
ellerinden tutmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

doludizgin ya\u015famak
k\u0131zg\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015f alt\u0131nda
alt\u0131n tanesi
olgun ba\u015faklar\u0131 bi\u00e7erken tarlada
aln\u0131nda biriken
boncuk boncuk terleri silerken
so\u011fuk testiden kana kana
su i\u00e7mektir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

doludizgin ya\u015famak
kavga arkada\u015flar\u0131nla
kavgada
omuz omuza
meydanlarda
kol kola
cezaevlerinde
koyun koyuna
olmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

doludizgin ya\u015famak
\u00f6l\u00fcm beklerken kap\u0131 e\u015fi\u011finde
azrail dolan\u0131rken ba\u015fucunda
\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn solu\u011fu ensende
\u00f6b\u00fcr yana gidip gelip
h\u00fccrede bir dost elini
omuzlar\u0131nda duymakt\u0131r
uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sigaray\u0131 yakarak
d\u0131\u015far\u0131 salmadan duman\u0131n\u0131
ci\u011ferlerine doldurmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

doludizgin ya\u015famak?
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek
\u00fcretmek
ve ya\u015fam\u0131
payla\u015fmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bazen de doludizgin ya\u015famak
bir su ba\u015f\u0131nda
ya da bir masa ba\u015f\u0131nda
tart\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dostlar\u0131m
bir tek c\u00fcmleyle doludizgin ya\u015famak
d\u00fcnyay\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fustos 1985, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckk\u00f6y\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oy Havar<\/strong>
“diyarbak\u0131r etraf\u0131nda ba\u011flar var
fitil i\u015fler y\u00fcre\u011fimde yara var”
t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc s\u00f6yleniyor radyoda
y\u00fcre\u011fim yanarak dinliyorum<\/p>\n\n\n\n

nas\u0131l dinlemeyeyim
as\u0131l \u015fimdi y\u00fcreklerde
fitil i\u015fliyor yaralar
diyarbak\u0131r etraf\u0131nda art\u0131k yok ba\u011flar
diyarbak\u0131r art\u0131k \u015fad akm\u0131yor
diyarbak\u0131r’\u0131
d\u00f6rt yandan ku\u015fatm\u0131\u015f kal\u0131n surlar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

diyarbak\u0131r k\u00fcsk\u00fcn
dicle nazl\u0131 nazl\u0131 akm\u0131yor
f\u0131rat suskun
karabulutlar \u00e7ullanm\u0131\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcne karacada\u011f’\u0131n
karacada\u011f h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n
gelin g\u00f6r\u00fcn
bu\u011fday ba\u015faklar\u0131n\u0131n boynu b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f
gelin g\u00f6r\u00fcn
asma tevekleriyle de\u011fil
diyarbak\u0131r zindanlarla \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f
kara ta\u015ftan d\u00f6rt ba\u015ftan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

s\u0131cak \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klarda
diyarbak\u0131r yan\u0131yor
isyanda ba\u011flar
dostlara haber sal\u0131n
oyyy havaaarrr
oyyy havaaarrr<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fustos 1985, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckk\u00f6y\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dostlara Selam S\u00f6yle<\/strong>
i\u015ften d\u00f6n\u00fcnce eve
ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131rken
\u00e7arpt\u0131 ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcme<\/p>\n\n\n\n

girdim i\u00e7eri
sen yoktun evde<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sorunca yengene
“gitti\u2026 bizimkilerine \u00e7am f\u0131st\u0131\u011f\u0131
rak\u0131 alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131
kendine de
palto ve ayakkab\u0131” dedi<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dondum kald\u0131m
ne \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm ne de sevindim
ama y\u00fcre\u011fimin derinli\u011finde
bir burukluk bir ac\u0131 hissettim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

biliyordum bilmesine ya gidece\u011fini
fakat
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnememi\u015ftim vedala\u015fmadan gidece\u011fini
aaah!.. ke\u015fke bir saat erken eve
gelebilseydim
seni kucaklay\u0131p doyas\u0131ya \u00f6pebilseydim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ne yapal\u0131m
kendi yolumuzu kendimiz \u00e7izdik
yolun a\u00e7\u0131k olsun. git
seni \u00f6zleyece\u011fim
dostlara selam s\u00f6yle<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kas\u0131m 1985, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckk\u00f6y\/\u0130stanbul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bahar\u0131 Bekliyorum
vardiyada \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum
makine motor
boru vana
elektrik \u015falter
uyum i\u00e7inde
\u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor<\/p>\n\n\n\n

reakt\u00f6r\u00fcn \u0131s\u0131s\u0131ndan
mikserin d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnden
motorun sesinden
ya\u011f\u0131n kokusundan
\u00e7ok karbonlu alkol\u00fcn etkisinden
ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n temposundan
olmu\u015fum yap\u0131\u015f yap\u0131\u015f
terliyorum<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bu halimle
kazan platformuna oturmu\u015f
diyarbak\u0131r\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum
k\u0131rlang\u0131c\u0131n kanad\u0131nda
bahar\u0131 bekliyorum<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aral\u0131k 1985, Avc\u0131lar\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0130nsan Olman\u0131n Anlam\u0131<\/strong>
insan olman\u0131n faturas\u0131
ucuz de\u011fil
her babayi\u011fidin de
k\u00e2ri de\u011fil<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bug\u00fcn
\u00e7a\u011fda\u015f insan olman\u0131n
anlam\u0131
ve erdemi
da\u011flar\u0131n
denizlerin
k\u0131talar\u0131n
taa \u00f6telerinden kara afrika’n\u0131n
aln\u0131 ak ayd\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n
-mandela’larun-
y\u00fcreklerinde ki s\u0131z\u0131y\u0131
y\u00fcreklerimizde duyabilmektir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

May\u0131s 1986, Avc\u0131lar\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Y\u00fcreklerini Bayrak Yapanlar<\/strong>
\u0131slak
yosun tutmu\u015f bir kaya par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde
seyrederken
u\u00e7suz bucaks\u0131z denizi
sofrada b\u00f6lerken
f\u0131r\u0131ndan yeni \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f
nar gibi k\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f ekme\u011fi
evde
kahvede
parkta
ince belli cam bardaktan
i\u00e7erken s\u0131cak taze \u00e7ay\u0131
sizler
ak\u0131l\u0131mdan hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yorsunuz
y\u00fcreklerini bayrak yapan
kara ta\u015flara g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc korkusuz
g\u00fcne\u015fin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temmuz 1986, Avc\u0131lar\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ba\u015f\u0131m D\u00f6n\u00fcyor<\/strong>
ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcyor
her taraf\u0131m kazan pompa motor
alkol buhar\u0131 i\u00e7inde
\u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum
mikserin d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc izliyorum
bilgi sal\u0131nca\u011f\u0131nda geziniyorum
atom i\u00e7indeki d\u00fcnyadan
y\u0131ld\u0131zlar d\u00fcnyas\u0131na kadar
her \u015feyin
enerjinin \u00f6rg\u00fctlenmesi oldu\u011funa
\u015fa\u015f\u0131yorum<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eyl\u00fcl 1986, Avc\u0131lar\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gurbet Ku\u015funun D\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc<\/strong>
emanet kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m evde oturmu\u015f
kendimi
ailemi
ve gelece\u011fimi
kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum
can\u0131m da bir s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yor ki\u2026 hi\u00e7 sormay\u0131n<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bakt\u0131m olmuyor
en iyisi biraz
hava almak
dola\u015fmak
deyip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m evden
\u00e7iseleyen ya\u011fmur alt\u0131nda
ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce yuma\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7inde
bir ba\u015f\u0131ma yaln\u0131z
y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm ha y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm
sonra bir dosta u\u011frad\u0131m
dost:
“neredesin
gurbet ku\u015fu seni ar\u0131yor” deyince
dona kald\u0131m
hem \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, hem sevindim
i\u00e7imden de
yoksa gurbet ku\u015fu g\u00f6\u00e7medi mi
yoksa gurbet ku\u015fu gidip de d\u00f6nd\u00fc m\u00fc
kafamda binlerce soru
duygular\u0131m karma kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k
ba\u015flad\u0131m bu duygularla
gurbet ku\u015funu aramaya<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eubat 1988, Bayrampa\u015fa\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ellerimi Uzat\u0131yorum<\/strong>
\u015fark\u0131lar bestelenmi\u015f
t\u00fcrk\u00fcler yak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcne
konu olmu\u015fsun
romanlara, filmlere, \u015fiirlere
insanlar havan\u0131 solumu\u015f
gah kahrolmu\u015f
gah hayat bulmu\u015f
i\u00e7erden
d\u0131\u015fardan
\u015fehirlerden
k\u00f6ylerden
insanlar
ta\u015f\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131n
alt\u0131n diye sana ko\u015fmu\u015f
her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi senin
ta\u015f\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131n
kazmas\u0131 k\u00fcre\u011fi olanlara alt\u0131n olmu\u015f
bir elin say\u0131s\u0131 kadar a\u00e7\u0131kg\u00f6z\u00fcn
su ve sokak ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tuttu\u011fu
yoksul+zengin=b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fehirsin
sen istanbul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ulu cami ve kiliselerinle
y\u0131k\u0131k bur\u00e7 ve surlar\u0131nla
fabrika
banka
batan bankerlerinle
ve yetmi\u015fiki milletinle
bir alem
bir tarihsin
sen istanbul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

cadde ve sokaklar\u0131nda
ka\u00e7an
g\u00f6\u00e7en
ko\u015fu\u015fan
konu\u015fan
ve kuyruklarda bekle\u015fen
insanlar\u0131nla
duran
y\u00fcr\u00fcyen
hurda
l\u00fcks
otomobillerinle
gelip ge\u00e7en
yerli
yabanc\u0131
gemilerinle
fabrikalarda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan
barlarda g\u00f6n\u00fcl e\u011flendiren
esmer
kumral
sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n
g\u00fczellerinle
gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz
durmak nedir bilmezsin
ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa gebe
gelece\u011fin dinamosu
hareket
ve elektrik y\u00fckl\u00fcs\u00fcn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00e7al\u0131\u015fan ve \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ranlar\u0131n
kalbinin g\u00fcm g\u00fcm att\u0131\u011f\u0131
ellerinde s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 gelece\u011fin nabz\u0131n\u0131 tuttu\u011fu
ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ordusuna en b\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00fcc\u00fc katan
\u00e7eli\u015fkiler diyar\u0131
kavga ve bereket \u015fehrisin sen istanbul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ellerimin birini
do\u011fum yerim
kavga diyar\u0131
ve
buram buram hasret
buram buram tarih
buram buram isyan kokan
karde\u015fin diyarbak\u0131r’a
di\u011fer elimi
sana uzat\u0131yorum
g\u00fczel istanbul’um
\u015fimdiden birlikte mu\u015ftulad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z
utkunuzu kutluyorum<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u011fustos 1990, G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Enerjinin Kudreti<\/strong>
izabede
y\u00fcksek f\u0131r\u0131nda
ate\u015ften f\u0131\u015fk\u0131ran
pota ba\u015f\u0131nda
\u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u0131n derisini kavuran
metali
potada eritip ak\u0131tan
enerjinin kudretidir
ve bu kudreti yaratan ise
ak\u0131l bilgi emektir<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eubat 1991, G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Art\u0131 De\u011fer<\/strong>
\u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan
k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bal ar\u0131s\u0131
ne da\u011f dedi ne bay\u0131r
ne \u00e7i\u00e7ek dedi ne \u00e7ay\u0131r
durmadan
daldan dala
g\u00fclden g\u00fcle
\u00e7i\u00e7ekten \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fe
u\u00e7tu
gezdi
ha bire \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131
yaz aylar\u0131nda
kovana b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn
\u00e7i\u00e7ek tozu
bal \u00f6z\u00fc
ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131
petek yapt\u0131
bal yapt\u0131
o\u011ful yapt\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

peki
kovan sahibine mi
kendisine mi
\u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kovan sahibine sorarsan der “bana”
ar\u0131n\u0131n ise ses \u00e7\u0131karmaz
ne de olsa
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme yetene\u011fi olmayan bir hayvan
onun g\u00f6revi
durmadan \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak
bal yapmak o\u011ful yapmakt\u0131r
sahibinin servetine servet katmakt\u0131r
ve kovan sahibi
bunlar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda
alt\u0131n yumurtlayan tavu\u011fun \u00f6lmemesi i\u00e7in
ar\u0131lara bir miktar
kovanda b\u0131rak\u0131r bal
geriye kalan\u0131na el koyar
der bana helal
ar\u0131y\u0131 sevdi\u011finden de\u011fil
bundand\u0131r ar\u0131ya verdi\u011fi de\u011fer
ekonomi biliminde
kovan sahibinin el koydu\u011funa
denir art\u0131de\u011fer<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eubat 1991, G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu\u011fday Ba\u015fa\u011f\u0131<\/strong>
g\u00fczeldir, berekettir, nimettir
bu\u011fday ba\u015fa\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n

hafiften bir yel esmeye g\u00f6rs\u00fcn
sallan\u0131r
bir o yana bir bu yana
sonra
alt\u0131n renkli ba\u015fak telleriyle
ba\u015flar
kelebek, ku\u015f ve b\u00f6ceklerle
do\u011fan\u0131n en g\u00fczel
t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6ylemeye<\/p>\n\n\n\n

baharda ye\u015filli\u011finin
g\u00fcz\u00fcn alt\u0131n sar\u0131s\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n
doyumsuz bir g\u00fczelli\u011fi
g\u00fczelli\u011finin bir h\u00fczn\u00fc vard\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

zahmettir
demet demet deste deste
k\u0131zd\u0131n g\u00fcne\u015f alt\u0131nda toplan\u0131\u015f\u0131
ben de
orak sallad\u0131m
d\u00f6ven d\u00f6vd\u00fcm
ve veso ana tarlas\u0131nda
g\u00fcne\u015fte de kavruldum
o zaman
bilincinde de\u011fildim
\u015fimdi sayg\u0131 duyuyorum
topra\u011fa tohum atanlara
bu\u011fday ba\u015fa\u011f\u0131 toplayanlara
al\u0131n teri d\u00f6kenlere
ekmek kavgas\u0131 verenlere<\/p>\n\n\n\n

namusun en b\u00fcy\u00fck kavgas\u0131d\u0131r
EKMEK KAVGASI<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ekim 1992, G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevda T\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc<\/strong>
demir, k\u00f6m\u00fcr, kum
ve ate\u015fim<\/p>\n\n\n\n

olmu\u015fum kor
olmu\u015fum har
yanar\u0131m ha yanar\u0131m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

yanar\u0131m
cehennem s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131nda
baht\u0131m\u0131n karas\u0131na
yanar\u0131m
sevda yaras\u0131na<\/p>\n\n\n\n

kara g\u00f6zl\u00fcm
kara sa\u00e7l\u0131m
kara bahtl\u0131m
sevdal\u0131m
bilmez misin ki biz
da\u011flan\u0131r\u0131z
karar\u0131r\u0131z
yanar\u0131z
bir sevda u\u011fruna<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kas\u0131m 1993, G\u00fcng\u00f6ren\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gelecek Y\u00fczy\u0131la Dair<\/strong>
inan\u0131yorum
gelecek y\u00fczy\u0131lda
insano\u011flu
atom d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffederek
her t\u00fcrl\u00fc maddeyi
gen \u00fczerine yap\u0131lan \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131yla
insan\u0131n en ince dokusunu
yapmay\u0131
\u0131\u015f\u0131k h\u0131z\u0131na yak\u0131n h\u0131zla
galaksilere u\u00e7may\u0131
ba\u015faracakt\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temmuz 1994, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcklanga\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevdan\u0131n Dinmeyen Volkan\u0131<\/strong>
h\u00fclyal\u0131 g\u00f6zlerin menek\u015fe menek\u015fe bak\u0131\u015f\u0131
beyaz sar\u0131 t\u00fcyl\u00fc kollar\u0131n sarma\u015f sarma\u015f sar\u0131\u015f\u0131
hayat dolu kiraz dudaklar\u0131n alev alev yan\u0131\u015f\u0131
kabaran g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde sevdan\u0131n dinmeyen volkan\u0131d\u0131r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haziran 1994, Aksaray\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sevginin Yedi Rengi<\/strong>
dayanamam
kokan g\u00fcl\u00fcn kokusuna
sevgilinin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dayanamam
ku\u015flar\u0131n \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne
a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n ye\u015filli\u011fine
denizin enginli\u011fine<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dayanamam
g\u00f6zlerinde par\u0131ldayan g\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hasretine
g\u00f6zlerimin i\u00e7ine bakan g\u00fczellik servetine
dudaklar\u0131ndan bal d\u00f6k\u00fclen \u015fehvetine<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dayanamam!
dayanamam, a\u00e7 kollar\u0131n\u0131 sevgilim
do\u011fa canl\u0131
do\u011fa hareketli
anam\u0131n ak s\u00fct\u00fc gibi bereketli
sevginin yedi rengi
do\u011fan\u0131n bize harikulade bir kudreti
renkler i\u00e7inde
sevgi i\u00e7in verilen emek
yedi renkte
bence en g\u00fczeli<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haziran 1994, Aksaray\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Namus Dersi Verene Bak(!)<\/strong>
insanlar
cilvele\u015fen ya\u015famda olmu\u015f
orospu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

koltuklara oturmu\u015f
k\u00fcrs\u00fclere \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f
\u00e7akal\u0131 pu\u015ftu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

bunlar\u0131n k\u0131blesi
namussuzluk
\u015f\u00f6hret borsa dolar
putu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

namus dersi veriyor
namussuzu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Haziran 1994, Aksaray\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her zamankinden Daha \u00c7ok Heyecanl\u0131y\u0131m<\/strong>
umutla sevginin
i\u00e7 i\u00e7e fitil i\u015fledi\u011fi
g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn sonsuz mavili\u011finde
ak g\u00fcvercinlerin u\u00e7tu\u011fu
g\u00fcne\u015fte ya\u011fan ya\u011fmur sular\u0131n\u0131n
ye\u015fil yapraklardan paralayarak akt\u0131\u011f\u0131
ayr\u0131l\u0131k t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri yerine
sevin\u00e7 t\u00fcrk\u00fclerinin en i\u00e7ten s\u00f6ylendi\u011fi
insanlar\u0131n tel \u00f6rg\u00fc alt\u0131nda
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerin kafalarda kilit alt\u0131nda
tutulmad\u0131\u011f\u0131
sevginin kalplerden kalplere akt\u0131\u011f\u0131
o g\u00fczel g\u00fcnler i\u00e7in hi\u00e7
yitirmedim umudumu<\/p>\n\n\n\n

her zamankinden daha \u00e7ok
yeni bir hayata sevdal\u0131y\u0131m
ilk \u00f6p\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmdeki gibi halen
heyecanl\u0131y\u0131m
K\u0131rkd\u00f6rtl\u00fck delikanl\u0131y\u0131m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temmuz 1994, K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcklanga\/\u0130stanbul<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00d6RTL\u00dcKLER<\/strong>
1.<\/strong>
her tarafta alm\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yalan dolan
b\u00fct\u00fcn de\u011ferler bir bir ediliyor talan
toplumda, bug\u00fcn art\u0131k kutsalla\u015fm\u0131\u015f \u00e7alan
kim ne derse desin? budur ger\u00e7ek olan<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2.<\/strong>
baharda \u00e7i\u00e7ekler a\u00e7ar
ar\u0131lar ona konar
bal tutan kadir bilmez
y\u00fcre\u011fim ona yanar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

3.<\/strong>
\u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k yol ald\u0131k
filiz olup k\u00f6k sald\u0131k
bir d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda
arpa boyu yol ald\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n

4.<\/strong>
an\u0131n bu kalbimde yara
benim ki bir kara sevda
beynimdeki her h\u00fccrede
unutma! sen vars\u0131n hala<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u00fcsl\u00fcm \u00dcz\u00fclmez, Doludizgin Ya\u015famak (\u015eiir), \u0130stanbul, Aral\u0131k 1994, 80 sayfa. \u00d6NS\u00d6Z Bu kitab\u0131mda s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri kar\u0131nca karar\u0131nca oya gibi i\u015fleyerek, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n derin izleri i\u00e7erisinde, g\u00f6nl\u00fcmden kopan duygular\u0131 \u015fiirle\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Yazd\u0131klar\u0131m, an\u0131lar\u0131n silinmez izleri ile zaman zaman dalga gibi kabaran duygular\u0131n ak ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fcst\u00fcne yans\u0131mas\u0131d\u0131r. Yazmak g\u00fczel bir duygu. Bu \u015fiir olunca daha da g\u00fczelle\u015fmekte. Ben kendimce yazmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u015eiirlerim yay\u0131nland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kabaran duygular dalgas\u0131ndan k\u0131y\u0131da neler kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bende merak etmekteyim. K\u0131y\u0131da kalacak olanlar, \u015fiirlerin siz okuyucular\u0131mda b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131 etkidir. Kabaran duygu dalgalar\u0131 ise benim f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131md\u0131r. \u015eiir insan\u0131n i\u00e7 zenginli\u011finin, g\u00f6n\u00fcl zenginli\u011finin \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc olmal\u0131. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn zengin oldu\u011funa inan\u0131yorum. \u015eiirlerimde, ac\u0131y\u0131 sevince katmerle\u015ftirebildimse,<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1071],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4887","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kitaplar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4887","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4887"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4887\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8163,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4887\/revisions\/8163"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4887"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4887"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4887"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}