So\u011fuklar iyice \u0131s\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n eli kula\u011f\u0131nda. Ya\u011fmurun \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan toprak, \u00e7amur ve so\u011fuk kokuyor. R\u00fczg\u00e2r \u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kesik kesik \u00f6tt\u00fcr\u00fcrken, kavak a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kendi \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sall\u0131yor ve etrafta r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n sesinden ba\u015fka ses duyulmuyor. K\u00f6pekler sokaklar\u0131 terk edip, \u00e7aresizlik i\u00e7inde inlerine \u00e7ekilmi\u015f, so\u011fuktan korumak i\u00e7in ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na sokmu\u015f sessiz bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde… Gece, ay ve y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n dahi \u00fczerini \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f, her yerde karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Be\u015fevler ise bu ak\u015fam karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n u\u011fultusunu dinlemekte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kasaban\u0131n kuzeyinde, da\u011f yolu \u00fczerinde yerle\u015fim yerlerinin hemen bitiminde bulunan Be\u015fevler; baharlar\u0131 ye\u015fil yaprak ve \u00e7i\u00e7ek kokan, yazlar\u0131 sebze ve meyveleriyle g\u00f6zlere ve midelere ziyafet veren, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131plak a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n yaln\u0131zl\u0131k \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011fi, ba\u011f, bah\u00e7e ve tarlalar aras\u0131nda kutsall\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131lan heybetli yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n ete\u011fine kurulu be\u015f evden olu\u015fan kendi halinde bir mek\u00e2nd\u0131r. Eskiden evler, ba\u011flar, bah\u00e7eler bereketli ve \u00e7ok \u015fenmi\u015f. Zamanla tenhala\u015farak eski g\u00fczelli\u011fini yitirir, zaruretten b\u00fcy\u00fck kentlere savrulmalar ve ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcmleriyle evler bir bir bo\u015falmaya ba\u015flar. Hazanda sararan yapraklar\u0131n dal\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u00fc gibi gidenler bir daha geri d\u00f6nmez, her yan\u0131 h\u00fcz\u00fcn sarar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee, sanki t\u00fcm gidenleri temsilen be\u015f evin ortas\u0131ndaki evde kocas\u0131yla ya\u015famaktad\u0131r. Kay\u0131nvalidesi Zeli\u015f, aileden geriye kalan son kom\u015fusu olup hemen do\u011fu yan\u0131ndaki iki katl\u0131 evde kalmaktad\u0131r. Bat\u0131 yandaki akrabalar\u0131na ait iki katl\u0131 evde kimse oturmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi g\u00fcnleri say\u0131l\u0131, ha y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131 ha y\u0131k\u0131lacak… Evlerin her iki ucunda kalan di\u011fer iki evde ise akrabalar\u0131 olmayan, k\u00f6ylerden yeni g\u00f6\u00e7 edenler yerle\u015fmi\u015flerdir. Evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki dut, i\u011fde ve kiraz a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, elektrik dire\u011findeki kirli lamba bir yan\u0131p bir s\u00f6ner, evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki ah\u0131rda inek bile art\u0131k tek ba\u015f\u0131nad\u0131r. Be\u015fevler, gidenlerin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ve h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc ta\u015f\u0131r. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131nda sadece an\u0131lar\u0131 H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019yi yaln\u0131z b\u0131rakmaz, her daim ziyaretine gelir. Yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda saatlerce sabit bir noktaya bakarak kederli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalar oturdu\u011fu yerden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Al\u0131ml\u0131 g\u00fczel bir ev kad\u0131nd\u0131r H\u00eav\u00ee. Be\u015f erkek, \u00fc\u00e7 k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu annesi olmas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011finden bir \u015fey kaybetmemi\u015ftir. Yi\u011fittir, korku nedir bilmez. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fkand\u0131r. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken beyaz le\u00e7e\u011fini ba\u015f\u0131ndan, \u00e7i\u00e7ek desenli \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fczerinden \u00e7\u0131karmaz. Ba\u011f, bah\u00e7e, ekin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kmaz. A\u011fa\u00e7lar, g\u00fcller, hayvanlar O\u2019nu tan\u0131r. Topra\u011f\u0131n, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n, bitkilerin, hayvanlar\u0131n dilini ve derdini bilir. Topra\u011f\u0131n kad\u0131n\u0131d\u0131r. Y\u0131llar\u0131n olgunlu\u011funu ta\u015f\u0131r. Merhametini esirgemez; tavuklar, g\u00fcvercinler, ser\u00e7eler, kediler, k\u00f6pekler \u00e7evresinden hi\u00e7 eksilmez, onlara anal\u0131k eder, yiyeceksiz ve susuz b\u0131rakmaz. Bu nedenle i\u015fi hi\u00e7 bitmez. Biraz de \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 uykuya yat\u0131rmak ister. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dertlidir, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131ndan hi\u00e7biri yan\u0131nda de\u011fildir, \u00e7e\u015fitli nedenlerle her biri bir yere savrulmu\u015ftur. Ayr\u0131l\u0131k \u00f6zlemi besledik\u00e7e \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinde t\u00fcter, r\u00fcyalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcsler. \u015eimdi ne yap\u0131yorlar, a\u00e7 m\u0131d\u0131rlar tok mudurlar, darda m\u0131d\u0131rlar sorular\u0131 \u00e7engelde as\u0131l\u0131 ci\u011fer gibi akl\u0131na tak\u0131l\u0131r s\u00fcrekli. Akl\u0131 her onlara gidi\u015finde y\u00fcre\u011fi s\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131r, ama s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 belli etmez. Ac\u0131s\u0131z bir hayat\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011fu yerde g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n da olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilir. \u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc kederli oldu\u011fu kadar sab\u0131rl\u0131d\u0131r. O\u011fullar\u0131 bir d\u00f6nem kasabada ve b\u00f6lgede etkin politik \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar yapmalar\u0131 nedeniyle polis ve askerler s\u0131k\u00e7a mimlenen evlerini bas\u0131p aramalar yaparlar. Her geli\u015flerinde o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n nerede olduklar\u0131n\u0131, ne i\u015f yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 sorarlar. Arama yaparken de evin alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcne getirirler, halla\u00e7 pamu\u011fu gibi e\u015fyalar\u0131 birbirinin \u00fcst\u00fcne at\u0131p darmada\u011f\u0131n ederler. A\u00e7l\u0131ktan yeni \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi evde yiyecek nam\u0131na ne varsa silip s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrler. Bazen de geceleri silahl\u0131 gen\u00e7ler kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131p ekmek ister, \u00e7ok s\u00fcrmez ard\u0131ndan bu defa gerilla k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f sivil polisler gelip ekmek ister. H\u00eav\u00ee \u00e7ok \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcp \u00e7ok \u015fey ya\u015fayan biri oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in gelenlerin hi\u00e7birine kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7maz: \u201cEvde yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131ma bir kad\u0131n\u0131m, kap\u0131y\u0131 k\u0131rsan\u0131z da, beni \u00f6ld\u00fcrseniz de a\u00e7mam,\u201d der. At izinin it izine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir zaman. Hava puslu, geceleri kala\u015fnikoflar y\u0131ld\u0131z avlamaktad\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ya\u011fmurlu so\u011fuk bir ak\u015fam vakti askerler da\u011f yolundan Be\u015fevler\u2019e yak\u0131n ba\u011flar\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki patika yol ayr\u0131m\u0131nda g\u00f6revli subay\u0131n emri \u00fczerine bir nizam d\u00e2hilinde dizilir, giri\u015f tutulur. Bir grup asker de Be\u015fevler\u2019i ser-halka ku\u015fat\u0131r. Evin k\u00f6pe\u011fi \u00c7omar ininden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p havlamaya ba\u015flar. O s\u0131rada H\u00eav\u00ee tek katl\u0131 evinde yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 soban\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015fl\u0131 kay\u0131nvalidesi Zeli\u015f\u2019le bir yandan \u0131s\u0131n\u0131rken bir yandan da gelin kaynana soban\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dertle\u015fmekte; konu kom\u015fudan, ba\u011f bah\u00e7eden, havalar\u0131n so\u011fumas\u0131ndan, ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klardan, gurbetteki \u00e7ocuklardan ve akrabalardan konu\u015farak s\u00f6z\u00fc s\u00f6ze eklemektedirler. Gece ku\u015fu misali evde oturmas\u0131n\u0131 bilmeyen kocas\u0131 \u015eahan her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi yine kahvede arkada\u015flar\u0131yla oyun oynamaktad\u0131r. K\u00f6pe\u011fin havlamas\u0131n\u0131 duyunca H\u00eav\u00ee, i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fcsel olarak hemen pencereye d\u00f6n\u00fcp bakar, gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnden birden g\u00f6lgemsi g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerin ge\u00e7ti\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Ba\u015fka kim olur bu zamanda asker ve polislerin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, evde yine arama yapmaya geldiler diye h\u0131zl\u0131ca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, kayan bir y\u0131ld\u0131zdan \u00e7ok daha h\u0131zl\u0131 yerinden f\u0131rlayarak o\u011fullar\u0131ndan birinin can g\u00fcvenli\u011fi i\u00e7in bir d\u00f6nem s\u00fcrekli \u00fczerinde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131, kasabay\u0131 terk ederken de emanet olarak b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 tabancay\u0131 sakl\u0131 oldu\u011fu yerden alarak \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7erisine yerle\u015ftirir. Zeli\u015f\u2019e, f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla, \u201cAskerler kap\u0131da…\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc daha tamamlayamadan kap\u0131 \u00fcst \u00fcste d\u00f6v\u00fclmeye ba\u015flan\u0131r. Tedirginlik ve korku i\u00e7inde kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ar. Askerler i\u00e7eri dolu\u015fur, g\u00f6revli Subay; \u201cBizimle geliyorsun\u201d deyip d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r. Zeli\u015f korkudan sesini \u00e7\u0131karamaz, bir \u015fey yapamaman\u0131n \u00f6fkesiyle h\u0131rs\u0131ndan ve korkusundan oturdu\u011fu yerde a\u011flamaya ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Subay H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019nin kolundan \u00e7eki\u015ftirerek evlerinin bat\u0131 yan\u0131nda bulunan iki katl\u0131 y\u0131k\u0131k evin alt kat\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. Kap\u0131 e\u011freti bir \u015fekilde kapal\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in askerden biri bir tekme vurup kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7ar. \u00d6nce askerler el fenerleriyle i\u00e7eriye girip etraf\u0131 g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irirler, sonra askerlerin \u201cEvde kimse yok komutan\u0131m\u201d diye bildirmeleri \u00fczerine Subay H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019nin i\u00e7eriye girmesini, duvara d\u00f6nmesini, ayakta beklemesini, zorluk \u00e7\u0131karmamas\u0131n\u0131 ve sorulara do\u011fru cevap vermesini s\u00f6yler. H\u00eav\u00ee korkmadan, dik bir duru\u015fla duvara y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nerek beklemeye ba\u015flar. Subay;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBu evde \u00e7ok silah var, silahlar nereye sakland\u0131? S\u00f6yle…\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBizim silahla i\u015fimiz olmaz, silah milah ben g\u00f6rmedim, bilmiyorum.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Subay askerlere; \u201cDuvarlar\u0131 kaz\u0131n, i\u00e7lerine bak\u0131n. Evin b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00f6l\u00fcmlerini ve zeminleri dikkatlice kontrol edin, iyice aray\u0131n\u201d emrini verir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evde kimsenin oturmamas\u0131 ve bak\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n yap\u0131lmamas\u0131 nedeniyle yap\u0131 zaten zorlukla ayakta durmakta, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fl\u00fck ve nem kokmaktad\u0131r. Duvarlar\u0131n yer yer \u00e7atlamas\u0131, s\u0131valar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu yerde d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f olmas\u0131, e\u015fyalar\u0131n geli\u015fi g\u00fczel sa\u011fa sola at\u0131lmas\u0131 toz, kir ve pas sanki bir zamanlar konak olan evin ac\u0131nas\u0131 terk edilmi\u015fli\u011fini g\u00f6stermektedir. Subay, askerlere s\u00fcrekli talimat verir, her talimatla y\u0131k\u0131k olan duvarlar daha da y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r. Ve bu arada akl\u0131na birden gelmi\u015f ve de \u00e7ok \u00f6nemliymi\u015f gibi ani bir d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fte bulunarak H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019ye;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSenin ka\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fun var?\u201d diye sorar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSekiz \u00e7ocu\u011fum var.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBu kadar \u00e7ocu\u011fu neden yapt\u0131n?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee bu soru kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Kuran (Bakara 223)\u2019da ge\u00e7en \u201cKad\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131z sizin i\u00e7in bir tarlad\u0131r, tarlan\u0131za nas\u0131l dilerseniz \u00f6yle var\u0131n\u201d ayetinden azade, evlerinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulunan, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n rahat\u00e7a oyun oynad\u0131klar\u0131 tarlalar akl\u0131na geldi\u011finden;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cTarla geni\u015fti, bol \u00e7ocuk yapt\u0131k.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHaaa… \u00f6yle mi?\u201d deyip, muzip\u00e7e g\u00fcler Subay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Be\u015fevler\u2019de bunlar olurken \u015eahan kahvede domino oyununu kazanm\u0131\u015f olman\u0131n rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla kalkar, her zamanki gibi b\u00fcfeden 35\u2019lik bir rak\u0131 alarak da\u011f yolundan yoku\u015f yukar\u0131 evin yolunu tutar. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n birbiri ard\u0131 s\u0131ra aral\u0131klarla bir d\u00f6nem cezaevinde kalmalar\u0131, g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nmalar\u0131, ekonomik s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar, insanlar\u0131n darbe sonras\u0131 riyak\u00e2r olmaya ba\u015flamas\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131k duygusu, bunalt\u0131c\u0131 siyasi bask\u0131lar ve s\u00fcrekli evin aran\u0131p \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n sorulmas\u0131 can\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131kmakta, kimselere belli etmese de i\u00e7i i\u00e7ini yakmaktad\u0131r. Dik duru\u015fundan vazge\u00e7mez, ama s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131ndan birazc\u0131k uzakla\u015fmak ister, ak\u015famlar\u0131 i\u00e7meye ba\u015flar. Gazete k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131 rak\u0131s\u0131 paltosunun i\u00e7 cebinde, kafas\u0131nda binbir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, yakas\u0131 kalk\u0131k paltosuna b\u00fcr\u00fcnerek eve bir an \u00f6nce varmak amac\u0131yla ad\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0131zland\u0131r\u0131r. Da\u011f yolunda mahallenin bitiminden sonra yolun iki taraf\u0131ndaki a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n dallar\u0131 r\u00fczg\u00e2rda s\u00fcrt\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc acayip sesler \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r, ald\u0131rmaz ama r\u00fczg\u00e2r, ya\u011fmur ve \u00e7amur h\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 keser. Da\u011f yolunda Be\u015fevler yol ayr\u0131m\u0131na geldi\u011finde, silahl\u0131 askerlerin yolu kapatt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr ve: \u201cKim bilir yine kimin anas\u0131n\u0131 belleyecekler bu gece vakti\u201d diye i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7irir. Ama kendi han\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n zorda oldu\u011fu akl\u0131na gelmez. Sorgulama ve kimlik kontrol\u00fcnden sonra ge\u00e7i\u015fine izin verilir. Ba\u011flar\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki y\u0131lankavi k\u0131vr\u0131lan patika yoldan ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131na \u00e7amur bula\u015fmamas\u0131na dikkat ederek evlere yak\u0131n geldi\u011finde \u00c7omar\u2019\u0131n s\u00fcrekli havlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, t\u00fcm evlerin askerlerce ku\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda fark eder. \u201cYine o\u011flanlar\u0131 sormaya gelmi\u015fler\u201d deyip, i\u00e7inden basar k\u00fcfr\u00fc. Evlerinin yan\u0131ndaki iki katl\u0131 bo\u015f evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011finde; evin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131k ve i\u00e7erisinin asker dolu oldu\u011funu, askerlerin ellerinde el fenerleri kazma ve k\u00fcrekle evin i\u00e7 duvarlar\u0131n\u0131 kazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, e\u015finin esas duru\u015fta duvara d\u00f6n\u00fck ayakta tutuldu\u011funu ve yan\u0131nda da bir subay\u0131n oldu\u011funu el feneri \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcr, tepesi atar. Askerlerin aras\u0131ndan Subay\u2019a yakla\u015farak: \u201cBu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ne dinde, ne insanl\u0131kta, ne de yasalarda yeri vard\u0131r. Bir kad\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6yle ayakta tek ba\u015f\u0131na nas\u0131l tutars\u0131n\u0131z karanl\u0131kta bu viran evde?\u201d diye, tepki g\u00f6sterir, Subay, s\u0131tma g\u00f6rmemi\u015f bir sesle:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cFazla konu\u015fma. \u0130hbar var. Bu evde kala\u015fnikof sakl\u0131yorsunuz.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSilah varsa aray\u0131n. E\u015fimi rehin al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f gibi gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, kimsenin oturmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir evde tek ba\u015f\u0131na neden ayakta bekletiyorsunuz? Bu y\u0131k\u0131k evin bek\u00e7isi biz miyiz?\u201d diye kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verince, H\u00eav\u00ee evine g\u00f6nderilir. O\u2019nun yerine \u015eahan paltosunun i\u00e7 cebindeki rak\u0131 \u015fi\u015fesiyle harabe evde duvara d\u00f6n\u00fck kavak a\u011fac\u0131 gibi dikilerek ayakta bekletilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee kendi evine gelip odaya girdi\u011finde, odan\u0131n k\u00f6t\u00fc koktu\u011funu fark eder, Zeli\u015f\u2019in a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6r\u00fcnce alt\u0131na pisleyip \u00e7i\u015fini etti\u011fini anlar. \u201cSeni al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcklerinde bir \u015feyler yapacaklar diye \u00e7ok korktum,\u201d der, a\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcr. H\u00eav\u00ee korkmamas\u0131n\u0131, kendisine bir \u015fey yapmad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, sadece silah aramas\u0131 yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, \u015eahan\u2019\u0131n da kahveden geldi\u011fini s\u00f6yleyerek sakinle\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Acele taraf\u0131ndan da bir \u015feyler bulup hemen Zeli\u015f\u2019i temizler, giysilerini de\u011fi\u015ftirir. Pislenmi\u015f elbiseleri bir po\u015fete doldurup daha sonra \u00e7\u00f6pe at\u0131lmak \u00fczere kap\u0131 arkas\u0131na atar. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f hangi olay\u0131n tan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 veya anlat\u0131m\u0131 bu arama esnas\u0131nda Zeli\u015f\u2019in akl\u0131na geldi de korkudan alt\u0131na pisledi\u011fini sormaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bo\u015f, virane evde uzun aramalardan sonra bir \u015fey bulunmaz. Bunun \u00fczerine; \u201cSizin oturdu\u011funuz evde de silah aramas\u0131 yap\u0131lacak, d\u00fc\u015f \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze\u201d deyip, \u00f6nde \u015eahan arkada askerler a\u00e7\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131lan kap\u0131dan eve girerler. Kimsenin yerlerinden k\u0131p\u0131rdamamas\u0131n\u0131 tembihlerler. \u015eahan\u2019\u0131 yanlar\u0131na alarak askerler evdeki b\u00fct\u00fcn odalar\u0131, kap kaca\u011f\u0131, yataklar\u0131, sand\u0131klar\u0131 aramaya ba\u015flarlar. Bu arada bir beyaz Toros taksi ile be\u015f alt\u0131 sivil polis de gelir, i\u00e7lerinden biri Subay\u2019la konu\u015fur ve aramaya onlarda kat\u0131l\u0131rlar. Arama yaparken kas\u0131tl\u0131 olarak her \u015feyi birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rlar, evi darmada\u011f\u0131n ederler. Yerlerde serili hal\u0131lar, kilimler, yolluklar, her taraf potinlerinin \u00e7amuru alt\u0131nda kal\u0131r, ev \u00e7amur deryas\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Bu esnada aramalar nedeniyle ah\u0131rdaki inek a\u00e7, susuz kald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ve s\u00fct sa\u011f\u0131m saatinin ge\u00e7mi\u015f olmas\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 s\u00fcrekli rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ifade eden b\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrmeleri ile H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019ye seslenmeye ba\u015flar. H\u00eav\u00ee, g\u00f6revli Subay\u2019a;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cAh\u0131rda inek a\u00e7 ve susuz, yaz\u0131kt\u0131r. \u0130zin verin de gideyim hayvana yem ve su vereyim.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYerinizden kalkmay\u0131n, oturun. Biz burada oldu\u011fumuz s\u00fcre i\u00e7erisinde bizden izinsiz hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yap\u0131lmayacak!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eahan ayakta, H\u00eav\u00ee ve Zeli\u015f oturur vaziyette olup biteni izlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. Ama inek durmadan m\u00f6\u00f6 m\u00f6\u00f6 diye seslenmeye devam eder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee yeniden Subay\u2019a; \u201cYaz\u0131kt\u0131r, ne olur b\u0131rak\u0131n hayvan\u0131n yemini ve suyunu vereyim, s\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc sa\u011fay\u0131m,\u201d deyiverir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Subay; \u201cSen ne laf anlamaz kad\u0131ns\u0131n? Korkmuyor musun bizden?\u201d diye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHay\u0131r, neden korkay\u0131m ki…\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Subay biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckten sonra H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019nin y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmadan sert bir tav\u0131rla;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHaydi, git, ama fazla oyalanma,\u201d deyip iki askeri de pe\u015finden g\u00f6nderir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee, sakince ine\u011fin yemini ve suyunu verir. S\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc sa\u011far. S\u00fct kovas\u0131 elinde askerlerle birlikte geri d\u00f6ner. S\u00fct\u00fc mutfakta tezg\u00e2ha b\u0131rak\u0131r. Asker ve polisler de evde aramalar\u0131n\u0131 bitirmi\u015f, bir \u015fey bulunmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Ne hikmetse bu aramada kimsenin \u00fczeri aranmaz. Ne \u015eahan\u2019\u0131n paltosunun i\u00e7 cebindeki rak\u0131ya bakarlar ne de H\u00eav\u00ee\u2019nin \u015falvar\u0131nda sakl\u0131 tabancan\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131rlar. Arama bittikten sonra Subay; \u201cYemeye bir \u015fey yok mu?\u201d diye, sorar. \u00c7ay yap\u0131l\u0131r. \u00c7ay\u0131n yan\u0131nda evde ne varsa yiyip bitirirler. \u0130nekten yeni sa\u011f\u0131lan kovadaki taze \u00e7i\u011f s\u00fct bile kaynat\u0131lmadan i\u00e7ilir. Yeme i\u015fi bittikten sonra evin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p, d\u0131\u015far\u0131da bekleyi\u015fe ge\u00e7erler. Bir s\u00fcre sonra da toparlan\u0131p gitmeye haz\u0131rlan\u0131rlar. \u015eahan yanlar\u0131ndad\u0131r. Be\u015fevler\u2019in bitimine kadar asker ve polislere e\u015flik eder, k\u00f6pe\u011fi \u00c7omar da kendisini siper alarak s\u00fcrekli havlamaktad\u0131r. Son evin \u00f6n\u00fcne geldiklerinde sivil polislerin ekip amiri belinden tabancas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartarak bir \u015farj\u00f6r mermiyi aileye duydu\u011fu kin ve evde hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bulamaman\u0131n h\u0131nc\u0131yla k\u00f6pe\u011fin bedenine bo\u015falt\u0131r. K\u00f6pek can havliyle \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131narak yere y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131r. Havlaman\u0131n yerini ac\u0131 inlemeler al\u0131r. Yerde k\u0131vran\u0131r, can \u00e7eki\u015fmeye ba\u015flar. Bedenini hareket ettirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmez. Titreyerek ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini kapar. Sessizlik olu\u015fur. \u015eahan donup kal\u0131r, buz kesilir. \u00dcz\u00fcnt\u00fc, k\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131k ve \u00e7aresizli\u011fini ku\u015fatan bir \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla \u00e7\u00f6melerek vedala\u015f\u0131rcas\u0131na k\u00f6pe\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015far. Subay\u2019a: \u201cHer \u015fey tamamd\u0131 da, bu, fazla oldu,\u201d diyebilir ancak. Tabancay\u0131 ate\u015fleyenden ve di\u011ferlerinden ses \u00e7\u0131kmaz, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi \u00e7ekip giderler. \u015eahan bir s\u00fcre k\u00f6pe\u011fin ba\u015f\u0131nda kal\u0131r, sonra \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn fark\u0131na var\u0131nca evine gitmek i\u00e7in kalkar, iki katl\u0131 harabe evin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki \u00fcz\u00fcm \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na geldi\u011finde duyuru yaparm\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na \u201ckatiller, insan olup aram\u0131zda ya\u015f\u0131yor\u201d, \u201ckatiller, insan olup aram\u0131zda ya\u015f\u0131yor\u201d, \u201ckatiller, insan olup aram\u0131zda ya\u015f\u0131yor,\u201d diye s\u00f6ylenerek soluk sokak lambas\u0131n\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda evine girer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u00eav\u00ee, ya\u011fmur, r\u00fczg\u00e2r ve kap\u0131lar\u0131n kapal\u0131 olu\u015fundan d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki konu\u015fmalar\u0131 ve silah seslerini duymaz. Asker ve polislerin evden \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131yla \u00fczg\u00fcn, ama k\u0131zg\u0131n bir vaz\u0131yette kendi kendine s\u00f6ylenerek evini d\u00fczene koymaya, postallar\u0131n\u0131n neden oldu\u011fu \u00e7amurlar\u0131 temizlemeye ba\u015flar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zeli\u015f korku ve \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn yorgunlu\u011fuyla soban\u0131n yan\u0131nda k\u0131vr\u0131larak uyur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eahan eve girer girince paltosunun i\u00e7 cebinden \u015fi\u015fesini \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r, barda\u011f\u0131na sek bir rak\u0131 doldurur, yudumunu al\u0131r, sonra isyan ve \u00f6fke dolu olarak dudaklar\u0131ndan do\u011fa\u00e7lama \u015fu dizeler d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cZul\u00fcm ve ev aramalar\u0131ndan b\u0131kt\u0131m usand\u0131m (Berfin Bahar <\/strong>Ayl\u0131k K\u00fclt\u00fcr, Sanat ve Edebiyat Dergisi, Y\u0131l: 24, Say\u0131: 263, Ocak 2020)<\/p>\n\n\n\n 4 May\u0131s 2021:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n https:\/\/www.3uncugoz.com\/caresizligin-sessiz-cigligi\/ So\u011fuklar iyice \u0131s\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n eli kula\u011f\u0131nda. Ya\u011fmurun \u0131slakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan toprak, \u00e7amur ve so\u011fuk kokuyor. R\u00fczg\u00e2r \u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kesik kesik \u00f6tt\u00fcr\u00fcrken, kavak a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kendi \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sall\u0131yor ve etrafta r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n sesinden ba\u015fka ses duyulmuyor. K\u00f6pekler sokaklar\u0131 terk edip, \u00e7aresizlik i\u00e7inde inlerine \u00e7ekilmi\u015f, so\u011fuktan korumak i\u00e7in ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bacaklar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na sokmu\u015f sessiz bir bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde… Gece, ay ve y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n dahi \u00fczerini \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f, her yerde karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Be\u015fevler ise bu ak\u015fam karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n u\u011fultusunu dinlemekte. Kasaban\u0131n kuzeyinde, da\u011f yolu \u00fczerinde yerle\u015fim yerlerinin hemen bitiminde bulunan Be\u015fevler; baharlar\u0131 ye\u015fil yaprak ve \u00e7i\u00e7ek kokan, yazlar\u0131 sebze ve meyveleriyle g\u00f6zlere ve midelere ziyafet veren, k\u0131\u015f\u0131n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[433,3403],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4044","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-oyku","category-plus"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4044","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4044"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4044\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4045,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4044\/revisions\/4045"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4044"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4044"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.uzulmez.site\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4044"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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